Photos with obscured subjects reflect a sense of dissonance that pervades my life. I work hard to present as a healthy, attractive, and confident person, but I live with intense familial trauma and rampant inner conflict about my sexuality. Since puberty I have felt a different relationship with my anatomy than most males, and after the death of my older sister when I was 17 years old, any sense of linearity or normalcy was eliminated. My life has felt disjointed ever since. I walk through each day carrying morbid trauma, contemplating mortality, and struggling to relate to my body. Manipulating my photos into mysterious, jarring sculptures captures the discrepancy between my outer appearance and my mangled inner life, while evoking the scary, captivating, and beautiful felt sensation of it.
J (b. 2000, New York) is a queer artist whose work blending photography, sculpture, and installation is an emotional response to life in a body that feels different than it looks.
sinwithoutgod@gmail.com